7.28.2011

P.S. I LOVE YOU


I first met Joey Rudolph at Pete's wake. He was standing with a group of big tattooed guys with long hair, with tears in their eyes, talking about how insane it was that Peter Steele was dead.

Joey has graciously allowed me to repost a story he wrote for and about Peter here ... enjoy. Thanks to Isa from Germany for finding this treasure & telling me about it.

P. S. I love you-------------------------- originally written for Peter Steele on April 16 2010

The Green Man  appears before  me- in from the mist, he calls to me from afar and I raise my fist, he sees me hobble and stumble through the grass as I come close, the eyes of green come into focus and I just froze.
"This cant be" I think to myself as I stood still, "Didnt we lay you to rest, over by the hill?" I hear him speak to me but his lips don't move, his voice booms and thunders but it sounds so smooth.


" I see you brother but can't touch your hand" I hear him say to me as if by command. "Whats happened to me son, I dont understand? Will you help me to locate, help me find my band?"

"I wish I could" I said with a smile, "wont you sit down with me and chat for awhile?"
"You're friends are close, back over at the bar, you know the one, where you're the brightest star"

"Come closer Peter, can you tell me why, you have this sad look coming from your eyes?."
" I have this feeling thats come over me, I can't understand how this can be?." He said to me softly as he flipped his hair, " Whats happened to me, Joe, I'm so worse for wear?"


I leaned in- on my cane for balance, to tell him what he already knew of his valiance.
He listened to my words with patience and fortitude, for this  was news of immense magnitude.


"Theres something hard for me to tell you man, I don't know how to, cause I'm your loyal friend, and I'm feeling blue."


"Its really serious, you have got to see, this is so hard, so very hard for me."
"You've had this thing that has happened to you, something terrible, and I promise to, cherish your memory and your honor too, will you at least let me follow-thru.?"


"You've died and gone to Heaven, this is my pledge, to protect you until the very end. Please look for my brother Steven, he will help be your guide, where Heaven Above and the World collide."


He then sits and he ponders and he searches his soul, soon he succumbs to the notion as it unfolds, "I saw Angels and Devils and unspeakable beings, they come to me at night and then steal my things.


They tear at my flesh, my heart, my fingers do they burn, tell me what it is, did I have to learn?. I am broken and suffer so terribly so, can you tell me what it is, that I should know?"


The ground shook and rumbled and the sky went dark, we both dove for shelter as I grabbed my heart.


Then snow and wind did come from above, the man in green protected me and he gave me a shove.


Under a bush did I fall to the ground with a thud, I saw The Devil and he was out for blood. I got up and stood with my pal- back to back, Peter grabbed me and we planned our attack. The demon flew by with thunder and fire, it was a battle for the ages in ecclesiastical attire. We smashed and we clobbered  and we fought till the dawn, Peter whipped up and destroyed the beast of Hellspawn.





Falling softly like a whisper the flakes floated down to Earth, they clumped together trying to be first, We fought the devil as we have since birth, this was our mission for what its worth.


"VICTORY IS OURS!!!!"  Peter screamed loud and clear, for the Angels and Devils, for ALL to hear, "I am Alpha-Omega, I did tell you all, come at me again, and I'll turn you into a FIREBALL"


The sky then did open and invite my friend, to go into the light so his heart could mend.
Then Angels came down to guide him above, with organs and drums and guitars and love.
Peter looked at me with eyes so wide, he smiled and he grinned with peace and with pride.
He lifted off the ground and floated so lightly, as if at a concert like he did so, nightly.
His music filled the wind, the valley and the World, his fingers touched the clouds as they unfurled.


Then it was over as whence it began, the sky closed up to envelop the man,
that I grew to know, as a friend, as a brother, as we ALL did from one to another.



I tell you all this to remember his name, as a man, as a friend, but not for his fame.
Remember the man, his greatness, his magnitude.


And all that he said with bombastic amplitude.


Remember the man, flawed and with sadness, with love and talent and for all the badness.
He gave us SO much of his soul and his heart- His mind, his intelligence, this was his art.
Peter leaves behind two families of loved-ones, His blood and his fans- of these there were tons.


And wherever he is, we know this is true- it is the Grandest of Palaces in the new venue.


He is calm, he is warm and so follow this creed, " Whenever it is that you have the need,
give to your family of time and of love, and shall any of us look to the Heavens above.
See the clouds swirl swiftly as they blow in the sky, remember Peter Steele and wave him goodbye."


                       RUDOLPH III

19 comments:

  1. Reading it for the third time and still love it. It's one of the best tributes out there and really puts to words what a lot of us feel.x

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  2. I loved Joeys poeme, since I read it the first time...it is very touching.
    Isa

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  3. This very beautiful... Thank you for sharing.

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  4. Absolutely beautiful.. it tears at my soul

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  5. This is such a wonderful tribute to Peter! Thanks for sharing. I wish I had talent to write poems like this.
    I don't know if this was mentioned anywhere else on the blog, but there's a tribute song named "Peter" by Otto's Daughter. It is just sooo beautiful. The lyrics capture perfectly how I felt when I found out Peter was no longer with us. If you haven't heard it,you have to check it out. It's just another example of how much Peter meant and how many people he touch during his short time with us.

    I met Peter once, when I was 16. He made me & my friends feel so important. I couldn't believe it. He was truly a gentleman & so god-like (stature & soul). I will never forget that time in my life. What a beautiful person he was!

    lots of love to all.
    ~Sonia

    here's a link to it:
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ki6V9dthbmg&NR=1

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  6. OMG, Bawling but I loved it! Thank you!!!! Peace.

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  7. Wow. Love this. A beautiful tribute. And just how it seems it would be, a fight between good and bad and Peter coming out the victor, and at peace...
    XXOO

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  8. I was moved to tears. I think Joey really captured the feelings perfectly. I want to be able to fight those demons off and watch Pete's back, too.

    Thank you to everyone who is involved in making this blog. It has been a great gift to me and it has helped me immensely to heal and move forward.

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  9. Hi Darcie--

    An intensely wonderful tribute to Peter. I'm usually an emotionally reserved person, but this brought tears to my eyes. Thanks to Joey for letting you share it with us.

    Love & Gratitude--Patty P

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  10. I just seen this somewhere else...think it may have been on the 13 Casketcrew 13 page. It is very touching. I agree he should be remembered more as a person/friend, not for the fame. But because of the fame, he has not only blood family but a TON family as well!
    ~Love and thanks to you all~

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  11. Being Pete's friend must've been an incredible experience. It's wonderful to be offered at least a small peek at what that was like and to understand the loyalty and determination he gave and inspired.
    Thank you. *;

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  12. I'm trying with all my might to read this all the way thru but I get tripped up, first when Peter asked where is his band....then I tried again, read on and then got to when Peter and Joey have beat the Devil and the sky opens up to go to the light..I had to stop again. I will try later when I'm at home safe and sound to finish reading the rest. So far I'm moved beyond words....I'm also crying tears to Heaven to Peter. What a sweet memorial to him. His essence is captured here in words....moving, brilliant, sad all the emotions are coming out. Oh Boy, I gotta go take a walk outside in the sunshine now and look up to the heavens where Peter is now...say a prayer for him, his blessed soul. He was one of a kind. Never to be forgotten. I will then go home after work and read the rest..it's just too much for me right now. I miss him beyond words. Of course I also am thinking about those who have left too soon that were close to me. Thank you again for sharing these words with us. You are so brave and so strong. Peace to you all those who love Peter. We all do.

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  13. This is the first time I have read this. I should have picked a better place than work to read this, as I was bawling at my desk! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this amazing art! And thank you girls for all that you do here...we couldn't cope without you. All my Love! *~*Samantha*~*

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  14. I SOOOOOOOOO LOVE THIS JOEY. I HAVE READ THIS TIME AND TIME AGAIN AND IT ALWAYS BRINGS ME TO MY KNEES. BAWLING AND SUCH HEART ACHE FOR JOEY BEING PETE'S FRIEND AND SHOWING HIS LOVE IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WRITE. MY HEART GOES OUT TO ALL OF PETE'S FRIEND'S AND ABSOLUTELY PETES FAMILY. PETE'S TRUE FRIENDS THAT IS. NOT THE ONES WHO USED HIM OR TOOK ADVANTAGE OF HIS KINDNESS AND HIS HEART.

    SUPER SUPER GREAT WRITE JOEY. XOXOXOXOX

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  15. Beautiful... I can't stop crying... again.. ~Blessed Be Greycat

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  16. Very heart felt tribute to Peter. Love the line, The sky then did open and invite my friend, to go into the light so his heart could mend. Very touching. Thank you Joey.

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  17. That was a beautiful Tribute, thank you so much for sharing this with us :) Love N Peace

    Amy Wigle

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  18. Rose from NY with love4:23 PM, July 30, 2011

    I was able to finish this beautiful tribute. I was moved again to tears. These words capture the very soul of what Peter was about. The protector, the brave man, the larger than life talent. He was brilliant, he was real, he was honest. Everything a real man should be. Peter we will look up to Heaven and give our loving thoughts to you sweet man. God has you now, your time here was too brief but never will we ever forget you. Your family, your fans we wish to thank you every day for your many gifts. Tears to heaven Peter. Beautiful tribute, Joey

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  19. I read this the other day and am still thinking about it. Very moving and comforting. Thank you for sharing this. Wordds can't express my gratitude to you for sharing your innermost pain and good memmories of Pete. Thank you!!

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