tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post5895170330754555993..comments2024-01-21T18:03:29.393-05:00Comments on For The Love Of Pete Steele: You Know You Have A Drug Problem When ...Ratajczyk Familyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13707046685042850783noreply@blogger.comBlogger53125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-8357374457513892112019-09-18T18:42:55.686-04:002019-09-18T18:42:55.686-04:00I'm saying hello. I never listened to any of h...I'm saying hello. I never listened to any of his music until recently. He once had a interview with Aquarian, and spoke spiritually of three others being connected. I don't understand anything, as far as cult stuff, but his spirituality expressed there seems so different from what interpreting in his music post death? Do youfeel this as well? He spoke freely about souls being, "trapped". Do you think this is part of the grand design? If he is trapped, do you think his soul is at rest......or am I just communicating with the grandmaster himself and you should reconsider your relationship with Paul. I do believe we can return.......I remember as you know some, and if I can believe that we can be free of our prisms, then I will be back to believe that again and once again allow others to feel love. I have had a very dark side, but not this lifetime, this is what my hologram mind tells me my brother? I love you. Please release those that you may imprison because are in a darkness that is not real, waiting for one to see......APOLOGIES FOR BEING SURREALAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-2670210139832209322019-01-24T15:17:50.489-05:002019-01-24T15:17:50.489-05:00Thank you for posting this. I just came across it ...Thank you for posting this. I just came across it looking for a photo of his car that he had put all sorts of cool stuff on.<br />I don't think that you're "airing his dirty laundry", he was pretty open about it and if you can save even one life from drug addiction, it is more than worth it.<br />Some may think bringing up his addiction is a bad thing, but it doesn't take away from his talent and achievements. Those cannot be touched.<br />I hope the love of your family, friends, and the many, many fans Pete had helps you (and your family) realize just how many lives he touched and made better through his music.<br />Blessed Be.❤D. K. Stevenshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18322457548119312662noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-34538593481669505182017-10-19T14:57:27.718-04:002017-10-19T14:57:27.718-04:00Always loved peters musical talent when I heard it...Always loved peters musical talent when I heard it in passing since I was a teenager,but just recently learned more about him sadly..he really was such a brilliant guy and I am now a huge fan. Just wish I had been more of a fan and not missed out on so much of his talent for years.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16284191162492848278noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-41862264750536818252017-09-01T19:30:52.144-04:002017-09-01T19:30:52.144-04:00I completely agree as well. She destroyed a wonder...I completely agree as well. She destroyed a wonderful human being.. key word is destroyed.<br />It's not easy seeing a loved one being slowly destroyed by these substances. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-18439510542008127932017-03-26T18:12:12.590-04:002017-03-26T18:12:12.590-04:00Your not alone, Peters music gets me through so mu...Your not alone, Peters music gets me through so much these days and I never had the honor to meet him. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07927061733141148576noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-40505711918009585042016-11-10T15:15:25.129-05:002016-11-10T15:15:25.129-05:00I agree 100%I agree 100%Chrishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04973528816993514444noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-92017033125227512282016-11-07T21:01:46.733-05:002016-11-07T21:01:46.733-05:00I never knew him except through his music but feel...I never knew him except through his music but feel a kindred soul and feel the loss. Thanks for your story.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-37361868045841784752016-08-20T16:26:17.375-04:002016-08-20T16:26:17.375-04:00(hug)(hug)AThttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12379945005822654276noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-92081422511282184832016-07-01T14:04:14.202-04:002016-07-01T14:04:14.202-04:00I wish someone could explain to me how it's no...I wish someone could explain to me how it's now been 6 years that Pete's gone and the mere mention of his name still makes me emit sobs beyond my control! Was he that close with me? No. We met a few times and as musicians and fellow Brooklyn residents we ran into each other a bit, and I attended his local shows. I put favorite haunt was Duff's. But in retrospect, his words resonate on a deeply personal level with me. We shared many similar feelings and beliefs. They say that time is a healer, why do I still bleed emotionally from this then? Life is forever changed. Heaven has inherited a true angel that touched many lives. Someone in Brooklyn still grieves for you my friend. May you rest in eternal peace!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16367156931231336450noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-44175552993740928732015-07-30T11:11:06.347-04:002015-07-30T11:11:06.347-04:00Greatest man in the world. Miss him now and know I...Greatest man in the world. Miss him now and know I will forever !!!!Sara 1.noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-90462229291866935172015-07-30T11:09:30.751-04:002015-07-30T11:09:30.751-04:00Yes, the perfect man. He had everything one . I&...Yes, the perfect man. He had everything one . I'M GOING TO MISS HIS DEARLY AND FOREVE!!!!!!!!Sara 1.noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-40825371719728438752015-04-18T21:42:18.857-04:002015-04-18T21:42:18.857-04:00It is so tragic when a talented young man gets cau...It is so tragic when a talented young man gets caught within the strong grip of an addiction. I pray for you all and the soul of Peter.LifeAsWeKnowIthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08516586286685519706noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-13654956510567294042014-01-12T20:05:10.914-05:002014-01-12T20:05:10.914-05:00Thanks so much for this piece. Sadly like so many ...Thanks so much for this piece. Sadly like so many families and friends have to suffer this cross. Peter gave this world something only a few can claim. Those few are eterternal. When we are long gone some person will play and be touched by his music. Bella Magickhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02469372096037245289noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-7924686041791518952012-08-18T20:27:01.372-04:002012-08-18T20:27:01.372-04:00In 1994 I begged my Mother to let me go to my 1st ...In 1994 I begged my Mother to let me go to my 1st concert, it was Type O Negative & Danzig at Sunken Gardens in SA, TX.... I was SO excited because my escape was/ is music.... and most of all as a 14 year old girl, Peter Steele was, and i hate to use this term but, "dreamy" as far as i was concerned... As a lover of music, I have followed the band ever since and was SO very devastated to learn of his passing... I have also lost a brother to addiction as well as other family members and friends. I watched my Father go through it for years and all I knew was I was doing everything in my power to help. He has had several health issues since getting clean and is a relatively young man... My point in all of my blabbering is that there are so many people out there who understand and have gone through what this family has... KNOW that you LOVED him and stood by him ALWAYS and that is what matters...and I suspect he always knew the same. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-38790452426603941772011-08-13T12:54:47.519-04:002011-08-13T12:54:47.519-04:00First, I want to thank you SO much for creating an...First, I want to thank you SO much for creating and maintaining this beautiful blog about Peter. Unfortunately I never got a chance to see TON live or meet them but I've been in love with the music for many years. You put Peter in such a positive light and it makes me happy to know he was loved so much by his family. From what I read above you wanted to know more about Elizabeth. I found this interview from a site called Casket Crew. The site has been around since "95/96." <br />He does talk a little bit about his fear of relationships and about his 10 year relationship with someone who I'm sure is her. <br />I don't know much about the interviewer and I'm not sure where the girl who runs the site found it from, but if you want more info I guess you could just email her from the site. <br /><br />Here is the link to CasketCrew and directly to the interview:<br /><br />http://www.casketcrew.com/media/interviews/lesas-interview-with-type-o-negative/<br /><br />Again, Thank You for keeping this up. The family stories are so hilarious and heartwarming. <br /><br />HeatherAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-5093717827370237802011-07-25T17:13:16.636-04:002011-07-25T17:13:16.636-04:00Sending my deepest respect and support to those wh...Sending my deepest respect and support to those who've fought their way out of the Catch-22 of addictive substances. That's quite a battle to survive, and it's so easy to fall into it. Telling someone who's introduced one to an addictive drug, left a two day supply behind and shown up three days later, smiling, dangling the drug in the doorway to just 'f'-off is hard, even when one has not succumbed. 'Firing' the dealer who tried to hook me was hard, even when I understood his malicious intent and hadn't succumbed. It took years to forgive that guy. Thanking my lucky stars for having a spiteful streak and drug-savvy family. Not everyone has that sort of dumb luck.<br />The abyss Pete climbed out of was very deep. He must've been incredibly strong to have accomplished it.dunebuggy4https://www.blogger.com/profile/04432182163223893256noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-68446383962155840662011-07-24T03:25:12.481-04:002011-07-24T03:25:12.481-04:00This cut deep because I have a brother that's ...This cut deep because I have a brother that's been doing drugs since he was fourteen...so the whole " The government planted a chip in my head and they can hear everything we're sayin'and look out there did you see the pumpkins walking across the yard, now it's hiding behind the tree is totally relatable.it's hard to see someone you love and look up to fall. I also lost a cousin who was like Peter, brilliant to the extreme, and totally devoid of self worth, to drugs and alcohol. It's hard to sit on the sidelines and "watch"...that's why the videos of Pete f'd up makes me sick to my stomach. I've been where you girls have been it's a totally helpless feeling.Brigettnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-36117849411606698382011-07-23T20:18:58.829-04:002011-07-23T20:18:58.829-04:00you cant blame elizabeth for introducing him to dr...you cant blame elizabeth for introducing him to drugs. blame peter, blame fate. <br />ive known people who were in a relationship with a partner who didnt do drugs but they still found a way to try it. i think its more of curiousity. people dont expect to get hooked or "sucked in"Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-92117786660545697242011-07-23T09:47:41.614-04:002011-07-23T09:47:41.614-04:00If anyone wants to see what she looks like when yo...If anyone wants to see what she looks like when you type in "Peter Steele's Girlfriend" in the search feature it comes up with a 23 second video of Elizabeth and Peter walking in the woods on youtube. I wonder if there was more to that video and where it came from. Maybe it was from the "After Dark" DVD which I do not have yet. Isn't Elizabeth still around? The family should find her and ask questions if they need closure/answers from that particular chapter in his life. Maybe she wants to talk to them but is afraid to come forward. <br />As for the naysayers about this blog be like your brother/uncle and remember there will always be critics but being true to yourself and your heart is most important. No one knows what you feel better than you do. If it feels right then do it. If you don't you will regret it later on. I am so glad you came forward to share with us. I felt like Peter was not given enough credit out there (internet, media) for how important he was to all of us. I didn't know he was gone till months after his death. I thought his death would have had more press coverage and there was nothing out there for awhile about it. I felt like I was groping in the dark for answers. He was a such an idol to all of us metalheads growing up in NY. But then again you can't help looking UP to Peter Steele he will always be a larger than life presences in my own life. Thank youAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-89258013531357111042011-07-23T03:03:58.070-04:002011-07-23T03:03:58.070-04:00Thanks for posting this. You can truly love somebo...Thanks for posting this. You can truly love somebody and not be blind to their flaws - I think Carrie put it perfectly. "Loved for who he is, not what he is". I don't believe you're disrespecting his memory by being honest about him - it'd be worse to sweep things under the rug and carry on as if he was Mr. Perfect. Now, I didn't know Peter, but from what I've learned from his music, various interviews and of course, this blog, was that he was remarkably honest about himself and that he didn't like sycophants, I don't think he'd like to have been perceived to be without flaws, even in death. <br />I truly commend you and your family for standing by Peter during his addiction. I know first hand just how testing that is and how it hurts to see somebody you adore damaging themselves in that way. It requires a lot of strength and compassion.<br />I am happy that his last days were good ones, though sadly short in their numbers. You must be so proud of him. <br />I'm sorry for your loss and send the warmest of wishes to you all.Jennoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-38773711166059566772011-07-23T00:50:01.698-04:002011-07-23T00:50:01.698-04:00I know I am a little late in the game here, but so...I know I am a little late in the game here, but some time ago I remember seeing an interview Peter did regarding his family and going to jail and all that stuff. Pretty heartbreaking. I don't have the heart to post the link and besides, anyone surfing Youtube can find it and I am sure everybody has seen it. He was pretty "out of it" and blaming family for him being in jail. If I were a journalist, I would have deleted that video and started over with that interview and asked different questions. But unfortunately that is an example what drug use can do. The paranoia and narcisism. When someone is hooked on cocaine or any hard drugs like that, their souls are dead at that point. There is no love except for people like them, and suddenly people who care for their well being and actually love them become the mortal enemy. I was once engaged to a man who was bad on meth and cleaned up. He was clean when I met him and he was a beautiful person, everything I ever wanted! He soon got hooked on coke thanks to some coworkers and got out of hand real quick! He left his job because he thought cops were warching him. He thought I had the house bugged and threatened my life! Finally, after he was missing for two days and came home, I told him to leavd and he tried choking me out! I pressed charges hoping jail time would straighten him out, but he got a slap on the wrist and a little probation and I got an order of protection that was worthless and he was up to his old tricks with his buddies and stalking me in no time! <br /> It crushes you when someone you adore tells you to your face that you are not worth cleaning up and living for. I have since moved on, out of state with a beautiful man, but I once in a while look back and hang my head. At least Peter found it in himself somewhere that life is worth living and his loved ones are worth loving again. Bittersweet. That is what makes him a hero! "Life is a windshield, not a rearview mirror".Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-19345097236611879272011-07-22T21:02:53.557-04:002011-07-22T21:02:53.557-04:00I'm very happy to have found this blog. I lov...I'm very happy to have found this blog. I love TON, and I've always been very appreciative of how genuine Peter seemed to be. I never got to meet the band, which I am very sad about. Peter really seemed to have a strong sense of integrity to me, which is not something I can say about almost any other musician I've known or listened to. He was honest and realistic, both qualities I admire in any person. I think he seemed somewhat at war with his profession, I think he knew that it was a struggle to resist all of the negative temptations out there but his passion for music and artistic creation and expression were just too strong...which I think defines a real artist. It's something we must do. He inspires my paintings constantly. On the note of his romantic relationships, tho this subjects isn't necessarily any of our business, it's hard not to be curious about a person's private life when they publicly share their feelings with us through music. We are somewhat involved because we felt his pain, his frustration, and his love with him through his music. I have researched a lot on Peter just to figure out details that aren't out there. I do wonder about his relationship with Elizabeth. There are all of these tidbits of publicity of the two of them but no real story to it, just fan theories. It seems she wasn't a very good influence on his life, which does make me sad that a large part of his life involved someone that brought him down. I am happy that his family is so very close-knit and strong. I am sincerely sorry that he didn't have the opportunity to have his own family, because I think it was something he wanted to do...based on some interviews I've seen. One of which wasn't too long before he passed. It's tough not to think of the what ifs, I really wanted to go see them in concert and then he died. I am grateful for the influence Peter and TON have had on my life. When I feel unmotivated, I listen to them and it gets me going. I laugh when I listen to some of their music because I totally get his humor, it's such a nice unique quality with them...to be able to laugh at his very smart sense of humor. Sorry for such a long message, I've never really had an appropriate venue to express my feelings about this band...and I hope it helps the family to know that Peter really truly and positively affected the lives of so many people. When I happen to meet another TON fan...it's like this weird secret bond has been struck that most people don't understand at all. I love it. Thank you!<br /><br />-KristiAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12214023710937606635noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-8809926698279973422011-07-22T17:15:47.293-04:002011-07-22T17:15:47.293-04:00Some of the most amazing people I've ever know...Some of the most amazing people I've ever known were drug addicts. Yes, were. I'm sorry and I know it's hard to speak of it. He's loved for who he is, not what he is.Carrie Clevengerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05093923008179106837noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-34461661379869104082011-07-22T14:06:30.034-04:002011-07-22T14:06:30.034-04:00For me your stories have been very helpful in unde...For me your stories have been very helpful in understanding a person so many of us have looked up to. It shows the true person he was instead of images that have been imposed by others. It also helps me, and I'm sure others, get through life and personal struggles knowing that with all life throws at you, you can make it. For me he has become not just my inspiration for playing music, but a symbol of hope and hard work in following your dreams and doing what it takes to reach goals. I cannot thank you enough for what you have shared.Emiladyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06997597373373185668noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7785167261103012885.post-88286113460536214762011-07-22T13:20:46.362-04:002011-07-22T13:20:46.362-04:00Hi Darcie/Marie, et al--
I would have replied yes...Hi Darcie/Marie, et al--<br /><br />I would have replied yesterday, but my damn computer was down! My mind is racing with a million thoughts, so I don't know how long this will end up being--<br /><br />Darcie, when you started this blog you asked for feedback as to what we would like to read about in regards to Peter. If I remember correctly, a large number of people said, basically, "the good, the bad, and the ugly"--as long as you feel comfortable doing it. I can understand your hesitance in regards to posting this entry. I realize there are things you want to keep private, but we all have many sides, Peter too. This just gives us another glimpse into what he was like, and the question of "WHY" pops up again. Many WHYS that I don't think I need to list here....<br />I myself am not a smoker, and like Peter, dislike being around people who are. Also, I did occasionally have a bit of alcohol when growing up (what teenager doesn't?) and at times got silly/stupid and realized that I have a very low tolerance for alcohol and decided I didn't need/want it in my life. At one point I also seriously thought about experimenting with hard drugs. This would probably come as a surprise to people who know me. BUT--I would've done it under controlled circumstances. I would've wanted a doctor, nurse, psychologist or psychiatrist, several police officers, several family members there to make sure the drugs were administered properly, with the exact dose given, notes to be taken, etc...I had it all planned. And then I started asking myself "WHAT IF?" What if the doctors/nurse/police are corrupt, what if the information isn't recorded properly, what if I end up addicted, what if, what if, what if....So I didn't do it. And MY ONLY reason for doing it would've been to see for myself how the different drugs interacted on my system, PURELY FOR MY OWN RESEARCH. But horrible things went through my head, so it's something I never did.<br />Peter was a sickeningly smart guy, smarter than me I know, so I keep asking myself "WHY?" Why and how could he let someone and something so toxic into his life and let it take control of him? I only 'know' Peter through this blog, but he seemed like a strong person with a strong will and I can't believe he'd let something like this end up running and ruining his life. I don't know who this ex-girlfriend is, but was it purely innocent on her part, or did she have an ulterior motive? Was she trying to bring him down, did she want to see him fail?<br />I've taken several astrology/tarot courses over the years, and one of the things that was always repeated was that EVERYthing EVERYbody does on this planet has an effect on EVERYbody else. Think about it, and how somebody halfway across the world could have an impact on your life. It's an overwhelming concept to get your head around, but in this case I keep thinking that if Peter hadn't known this girl how much better and different his life would've been.<br />This was difficult to read, heartwrenching. I can only imagine how you, Marie, and Darcie must've felt writing it, with the memories it brought up. It takes courage and willingness on your part to share this with us, and you have both in abundance. Thank you again.<br />Love & Gratitude--Patty P<br /><br />P.S. I see you got my spelling note Darcie!! :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com